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I feel very outside my element at this moment. For me I welcome the silence that leaves everyone in the room asking If you would kindly point them in the direction of the nearest exit after they built up enough confidence to make up an emergency and they must be going, stumbling over their sentences as they just talk faster and faster - we all ( Read more... )

Can you ever count on any of it to stop? No so much a roller coaster but only because unless this is your first time riding you have an idea of what waits ahead for you, and even when you didn't your anticipation could be seen by how tight you were closing your fists. But have they ever been stitch closed like your eyes were as you swung making up ( Read more... )

Every time I try and position myself comfortably before I write one of these it never works out. It angles my shoulder at an awkward pivot that's made when holding the screen adjacent to my face to look at what I'm typing; I really should type these out at a desktop but those aren't usually saavy when you're on the go or don't feel like going to ( Read more... )

It's like you're all desperately waiting to hear something on my mind. If you had half the brain you'd realized how much time you're wasting chasing this reality that is always close enough to stare in the eye; but whatever you see I guarantee it's not me. It's not leading you on because I'm not going to tell you more than once. There's not enough ( Read more... )

I tried a Klondike bar today. Why have I thought it would have a mint aftertaste all this time.

I guess this is what all the rush is about. To watch us all claw away at the walls and watch eyes turn red and tempers rise. I'm treading carefully and not expecting much. I have to commemorate him doing a good job programming me. It was a unique script that would gain the envy and jealousy of bill gates. I find out more and more about my ( Read more... )

I'm missing some of the moments in life that I was responsible for making and and I guarantee the memory that has taken its place wasn't of anything of more importance, in fact it was something that could of waited and only highlights the negative self centered characteristics I try and play off as not having. When you agree to be somewhere and ( Read more... )

Look at it this way: it could always be worse. The sad thing is I keep finding out how much easier I had it as time passes. You don't notice the months changing until you're at a new year. Is this really it for me? What else is necessary to have that opportunity. I know better than to expect fairness or an equal shot, not in this world, and in this ( Read more... )

And then you ask yourself why do you do it. And why to each other. At what point when you were hurting each other could you most identify with love? Over time the cuts and bruises become scar tissue and you notice that the fighting slowly loses its hurt; mentally. And the only way you can prove that the sanctity of your love is real is by putting ( Read more... )